New Years Goals.

New Years Goals.

That time of year again! The end of the year! I guess world didn’t end, right? — and here I am making another list (I do love lists though) of things I want to “get done” in the next 365 days. This is actually a fun exercise for me. Change can be energizing, and something to look forward to whether it be travel or a new endeavor is important for just everyday motivation. Writing these goals down is even more powerful — in pen and ink for that matter. And now posting them on the Internet!

I’ve been keeping little journals tucked away in my giant purse making notes and ideas — writing down anything I need to do or something to write about later. It’s come in handy, even just to pick up something at the store.

So this year I have some big goals. The biggest one is more of a dream that needs to come true (not like marriage to Ryan Gosling) – but I’ve wanted to move for a few years now, but have stayed put — mostly for work, and love. Money really isn’t a huge issue, but could be if I choose to take another job or live in an expensive part of the country, which of course I am. Dream big.

So even if its December 31st and I am packing my bags it will be a success.

Although, in the midst of all that I would like to publish a small e-book of recipes I have made over the course of a few years blogging. Also, spend less time social networking online—and more working towards writing here and elsewhere. Also, reading about 4 books.

I didn’t put a whole lot of fitness/diet goals on here – because honestly that all falls into place when I am happy. I will binge eat chocolate all night long when I don’t want to talk about my negative feelings. But if my social life and group is affirming of the inside of me, the rest just doesn’t become an issue. I was healthiest when I was happiest. The two go hand in hand so in turn I am focusing on my relationships with others to help get me into a place outside my comfort zone where I can truly grow this year – relocation or not.

What do your New Years Goals look like? Share in the comments!

P.S. I’m obsessed with this video: Lights covers Drake…so many feels ❤


Brudet (Croatian Seafood Stew)

The Domestic Man

Brudet is a fish stew from Croatia, similar to an Italian Brodetto or Greek Bourdeto. All three are based on the Venetian word brodeto (“broth”). The recipes for each dish are similar; in fact, if you ever find yourself traveling along the Adriatic coast and see a similarly-named dish on a restaurant menu, you can probably bet it’s going to be a delicious fish stew cooked in a tomato base.

While there is a lot of variation to this dish, I like the Croatian version because it is an easy and unassuming approach to making soup. Marinate some fish for a while, then throw everything together at the proper time; it’s a true one-pot dish. Traditionally this dish is made with a mixture of fishes, to include eel, rockling, or coral trout; since they’re hard to come by, I think any firm white fish should be okay. I used cod…

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Happy Hardcore Holidays!


Here I am with a day off of work and I should be running around getting last minute Christmas gifts, but my heating bill was 200 dollars this month, so I’m on a budget until summer basically. Budgets are kind of the worst too, because I suck at sticking to them. I have a budgeting app on my phone (that I PAID for?) and it still depresses me. I feel so confident when I am in the blue — but then I spend a big chunk of change at Whole Foods or H&M and “fuck it” mode engages.

Holidays shouldn’t be about money — or weight gain for that matter. Everyone tries to avoid the holiday pounds — why? Because we are being extra social and going to ugly Christmas sweater parties and eating rum balls with eggnog? I guess. My “holiday weight gain” usually comes from me wanting to sleep all day since there are about 3 hours of daylight and its 25 degrees outside. I’m a freaking brown bear. See ya’ll in Spring!

So winter for me is really about survival. I’ve been taking some extra steps to make sure everything on me stays in working order until warmer weather comes again.

  • Bike trainer: ImageI hook my current bike up to it and go to town for 20 minutes to an hour to clear my head and sweat. Bonus: you can jam out to your favorite songs and not look like a tool bag in front of others.
  • Food diary:  ImageNormally these are annoying — but its been helpful to see where I am lacking in terms of nutrients and macros. I am currently eating only 11 percent calories from protein and would like to bump this up.
  • HIIT: Did some investigating online and found a few good work outs to change things up. Check out The Daily Hiit site.
  • Tanning: I know this sounds counter intuitive, but I rarely get outside at my job so that Vitamin D (even from a synthetic source) is very very helpful with mood and health. Do you want me to keep crying at these Apple holiday commercials? Awkward…
  • MOISTURIZE: ImageMan, it is dry up in here. I bought a humidifier a few weeks back to keep my sinuses happy at night. It broke. 😦 So hopefully Santa will bring me a new one, or I’ll pay more than 40 bucks for one. Also been using plain old coconut oil on my skin and nose for extra moisture. Stuff does wonders.
  • Washing my hair every other day:  I’m on a mission to grow my hair out — but the dry weather breaks it like crazy. So I now only wash it every other day since I can just pull it up and go with that “beachy” look. Or  the hey! I didnt wash my hair look. Also washing it before bed and letting it air dry has saved it from heat damage, which I am super guilty of doing. Blow drying and flat ironing once a week MAX now. Going hippy this next year. Dreads are looking good…kidding.
  • Eating Clean: Also extra effort to avoid sugar (help!) and limit carbs since I am less active in winter. Body seems to responding well.

Things to work on:

  • Meal timing
  • Digestion
  • Healing Acne
  • Getting a social life

Merry Christmas friends. 🙂

This Place Is A Prison


Hey there. Well if anyone is actually out there and reading this, you may or may not know I had the honor of being a guest on a podcast. I was able to speak about my journey from sickness into recovery and what was well next I suppose. Its an interesting thing to be able to give a voice to the things that happened to you.

I dont share with everyone (even some close friends) that I struggled with anorexia for 10 years. Its really not relavant to who I am anymore. People shouldnt have to walk on eggshells. Things are no longer “triggering” for me that may of been before. Being on this side of health is really amazing. It hard to even think back into the mind and life that I lead 10 years ago. I did not drink or celebrate like most 21 year olds. I played it “safe”. Inside my little cave of fear and anxiety. I slept a lot back then too. Hey, I still like to sleep. It does wonders for my waking hours. But I suppose that is a different blog post.

I really struggled with the question “What would I tell myself back then (when I was sick)?” Because I am not one to judge, or give false promise — I couldn’t think of anything other than “dont waste your time”. But was it really time wasted? Time spent to say bigger things later. I can only hope.

You can find the podcast over at and the link here.

Give it a listen and do me a favor and rate the show for Kaila + Eito on iTunes. Very easy.

Sorry if I talk fast!